Change? Or just a Phase?

I miss how i used to treat this place as my dairy, sharing about my thoughts and my feelings. I used to be so eager to share everything in this space of mine.

Why am I not sharing it any more? It just felt so open. More than what I thought it would be which it can be so scary sometimes.

It might be a change or just a phase that I am going through. We'll see.

In the meantime, I am back in Aussie land. A month holiday in Malaysia is awesome and also precious. Will share about it in the next post. I shall get back to rest now since i'm still sick.

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Twists & Turns

In life, sometimes when we think that everything is sticking right to our own plan, things seem to be so perfect, occasionally we get thrown a curve ball which wasn't in our plan at all. Some might get frustrated, some might look at it as a challenge and face it happily. For those who will get frustrated, things might be worse for them. They might started getting crazy, blaming everyone, everything around them, blowing off their tempers at people near them, rant about how life is unfair to them and blah blah blah... sounds familiar to you? It sounds familiar to me. lol.

We often use the same excuse. We are all human and this is our human nature. We want to change our perspectives, our way of thinking but its' hard. Because we are human, we are supposed to be weak. Sounds even more familiar to you?

What we don't realize or we understand yet never take it seriously is that all these twists and turns, these spoilers in your life is actually planned beforehand. Everything that happens to you is a part of perfect plan designed especially for you, and only you.

It's not easy to take these surprises with an open and joyful heart. However it is your choice to either doom yourself in the gloom and misery of uncertainty or forge ahead and believe that things will get better from here. Well, life wouldn't be so much fun if we always know ahead bout what's going to happen next, right?

Have fun in your life journey and Im sure I will enjoy mine. xoxo



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Everything is going to be fine..

It's okay to admit failures.
It's okay to admit that I'm weak.
It's okay to heck care what others think..

All because..

I have all of you..
the true friends..
that's enough for the tiny me..



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Down

This is the time where I need friends, need affirmed love..

Thank God for His unconditional love..




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Expectation and Disappointment

Expectation leads to disappointment.
The higher expectations you have, the greater disappointment you'll get.

Been telling myself this so often lately.. Stop expecting..But it's not working.
I hate feeling this way.. Never knew I would be this vulnerable and being such stubborn that I hate to admit this.. Gosh.. I'm driving myself crazy..

How to stop expecting? I need help..


:(

Sometimes you need to be selfish

Recently, I keep getting updates about friends' relationships statuses.
there's friends that announced their engagement,
friends that are married,
friends that got into relationships,
friends that just ended their relationships badly, i mean really bad..
or friends that are deeply hurt in their relationships yet still hold on to it because they think it's 'love'.

Their lives revolve around relationship issues. Their emotions are deeply tied to it. They cried, they screamed, they went crazy and they seek help from those unaccountable ones.
Hearing from them being in such circumstances caught me into a mixture of feelings..
Bitter and sweet feelings, not memories.
Funny how those used to be sweet memories are now blurry to me.
Other than that, it reminds me that I once used to be weak, depress and even losing faith in this issue. I almost gave up too.
Don't get me wrong. I am not upset right now when I feel these again.
Yet, I am smiling because I am more than grateful that I am in love, with someone that believe and tell me that I deserve better.

Huns, whatever it is, life still go on.
Don't stop dreaming and be daring enough to let go and move on.
After all, you yourself is more important.





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